Also, frankly, I'm more mature, after training. Although I only got to it late in life, I have nonetheless finally worked through a rite of passage I always knew I needed to undergo: testing my self through a productive discipline (and, I admit it, earning what I perceive to be the imprimatur of some authority in the field). I'm more of a grown-up now, no more talented nor wiser than before, but done with juvenile rites left too long uncompleted. A lot of anger that once served me as I coped with the frustration I felt at leaving something important incomplete I can now leave behind. My days of rebellion (against what I knew not) are now past.
It's time to work.